I never thought I'd write a poem like this , infact I have no idea how I could write this one - but I guess this is one way I could let my emotions out - my feelings for the one person who meant the most to me - MY DAD . You will always be my hero , there are so many things I want to say to u Paa.. I was not done yet - there were so many things we still had to do together....
I just cant let go of the fact that I wont be seeing you again ever ... I dont have the strength to accept the fact Paa...
I cried again today
Uncontrollable tears fell from my eyes,
It seems like all I do is cry
And its getting harder from to hide.
I lie in bed and cry all night,
And I don't feel any better in the morning light.
Paa ... I miss you !!
I held your hand as you took your last agonizing breath,
You fought with with your heart and soul.
My world came crashing down like a pack of cards
I dint want to be consoled.
I never thought I'd see you die
How could you walk away breaking all ties?
Who will teach me right from wrong?
With you gone .. ?
Whom will I turn for answers ,
When life does not make sense?
Who will be there to hold me close ,
And always be there for my defence?
I cant call you on the phone,
I cant knock on your door,
No matter how loud I scream,
You wont be there for me like before.
It was so hard for you to let me go off at the airport,
To let you 'beta' venture into a world unknown,
Without you holding my hand,or catch me if I fall
To walk the path that you have shown.
Paa .. I need you !!
So many images come into my mind,
Whenever I speak of your name
I cant seem to come to terms with the fact
That our lives wont be the same.
The times we've shared,the laughs we've had
Things I miss when I think of you Dad.
Realising that's all I have to hold on to,
Only memories of what once was you
Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.
That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.
No more smile on your face,
No more warmth of your embrace.
The last hug, The last kiss,
The last "goodbye" leaves me with one last wish...
To have you Dad, here today,
Never to leave your Daughter this way.
Oh, Paa, if I could turn back time
and once more hear your voice;
I'd tell you that out of all the dads
you would still be my choice.
Please always know I love you
and no one can take your place;
Years may come and go
but your memory will never be erased.
Today, God, as You are listening
in your home above;
Would you go and find my dad
and give him all my love.
Paa ... I love you !!
- Megha
