A Promise To My Love

I am back after a long long time.... there wasn't enough motivation for me to write I guess.. Never mind...this post is dedicated to someone really really special !!

Learning how to love is a life long process. Each day we learn a little more. It can be hard work and sometimes we make mistakes, but Love is worth the effort! You are worth the effort !

I believe that no one can love you

quite as deeply as I do;

And yet I often fail to show

the depth of it to you.

I vow to do the little things,

to show you every day;

But one thing or another

seems to get into the way.

I pledge to be more open,

to have courage and be strong;

But some how sometimes fear takes over

and then everything goes wrong.

I dream of perfect love for us,

and hope that it will be;

And yet I end up giving you

a less than perfect me.

I want to be much more for you,

be everything you need.

I hope and seek, beg and pray

"Change me God! ", I plead.

You are the only one I want.

It is for you I yearn.

I guess, my love, there's still so much

that I have yet to learn.

I cannot give perfection,

but this I promise I will do -

I will spend my life time learning

how to give my love to you.

- Megha

Paa .. I love you !

I never thought I'd write a poem like this , infact I have no idea how I could write this one - but I guess this is one way I could let my emotions out - my feelings for the one person who meant the most to me - MY DAD . You will always be my hero , there are so many things I want to say to u Paa.. I was not done yet - there were so many things we still had to do together....

I just cant let go of the fact that I wont be seeing you again ever ... I dont have the strength to accept the fact Paa...

I cried again today

Uncontrollable tears fell from my eyes,

It seems like all I do is cry

And its getting harder from to hide.

I lie in bed and cry all night,

And I don't feel any better in the morning light.

Paa ... I miss you !!

I held your hand as you took your last agonizing breath,

You fought with with your heart and soul.

My world came crashing down like a pack of cards

I dint want to be consoled.

I never thought I'd see you die

How could you walk away breaking all ties?

Who will teach me right from wrong?

With you gone .. ?

Whom will I turn for answers ,

When life does not make sense?

Who will be there to hold me close ,

And always be there for my defence?

I cant call you on the phone,

I cant knock on your door,

No matter how loud I scream,

You wont be there for me like before.

It was so hard for you to let me go off at the airport,

To let you 'beta' venture into a world unknown,

Without you holding my hand,or catch me if I fall

To walk the path that you have shown.

Paa .. I need you !!

So many images come into my mind,

Whenever I speak of your name

I cant seem to come to terms with the fact

That our lives wont be the same.

The times we've shared,the laughs we've had

Things I miss when I think of you Dad.

Realising that's all I have to hold on to,

Only memories of what once was you

Missing your laugh, I will never again hear.
That is the reality that fills me with so much fear.

No more smile on your face,
No more warmth of your embrace.

The last hug, The last kiss,
The last "goodbye" leaves me with one last wish...
To have you Dad, here today,
Never to leave your Daughter this way.

Oh, Paa, if I could turn back time
and once more hear your voice;
I'd tell you that out of all the dads
you would still be my choice.

Please always know I love you
and no one can take your place;
Years may come and go
but your memory will never be erased.

Today, God, as You are listening
in your home above;
Would you go and find my dad
and give him all my love.

Paa ... I love you !!

- Megha

How hard will it be till that day ?

I will light a candle every night,
I will hold my tears and stop cry...
I know love excited somehow,
I know faith will lead us someday ..
I miss you today even more than yesterday,
My heart still burning when you are away...
Cant say a thing but still feel you here ,
Somehow beside me through the storm .....

How hard will it be till that day ?????

UUMMMMM ……..

The biggest topic around today
Is to watch all the things you eat
If you want to remain healthy and slim
Stay away from anything sweet !!

Now, I know they really mean well
But aren’t they carrying a bit too far
Don’t they realize how unhappy I’d be
If I cannot eat those chocolate bars ??????????

I’m not the one who thrives on veggies
Fruits – I don’t care at all
Just give me chocolate n e time
N I will have a ball

In fact it's been said,
a piece of dark chocolate,
is good to have once a day.
Because it's an antioxidant
and will help keep most problems away.

I try to keep abreast of
what's good or bad to eat..
Do they honestly think I'll ever give up,
that delecious chocolate treat?

Come , Walk with me ..

Come walk with me just one more mile
Before we call it quits
Forget about the broken dreams
Now broken into bits.

My emotions may get strong on me
But don’t you walk away
Hold on to me and keep me close
Don’t you let me stray

Put one more foot out, forward
without which I’d regret
So lets keep our eyes locked to the front
Coz we are not finished yet.

Lets keep moving on the road ahead
Not think of whats left behind
Coz if we keep moving
Our destiny we might find

We might find few surprises
that might even make you smile
Might even see life clearer
While walking for a while.

We might even find some pieces
That we missed along the way
Or some new ones that are better
To use another day.

So another mile together
Can I walk with you?
One more little effort
Before we bid adieu….


- Megha

I still love you...

A forgotten poem - now completed . I dedicate this to someone really close to me.

When I close my eyes, fear grips me tight
Thoughts about you, leaves me sleepless at nights.

Dint want to let you go, I wish you could just stay
Dint want to move away from you, and this feeling becomes strong each day

Things happen for wrong reasons, things happen for better
When I said we’d part our ways, sweet memories turned bitter

Everything went downhill; where did it all go wrong?
I still think about you, and listen to our only song

I am not supposed to wonder where you are and what you do
But am I still here writing and thinking about you

I am not supposed to love you; I am not supposed to care
I am not to live my life wishing you were there

I probably broke your heart, and I think I broke mine too
I don’t know how to say this, but I think I still love you…..

- Megha

I think I'm in love with you ...

I don't know what to say,

or even what to do,

all I know is that

I think I'm in love with you.

Yes, I’m in love

what else can I say?

I guess it just happened

and grew more with each day.

This may sound crazy I know,

But I needed to let it out

because there is something there,

I know without a doubt

How do I tell you?
Where do I begin?
Every time I think of you
It stirs up feelings hidden deep within.

My love blooms for you

like a flower in spring,
With petals sprinkled with dew

it’s an amazing and beautiful thing.

I hold on to it gently

and feel its light glow,

as into my heart

it begins to flow.

I don’t want to take it slow,

nor do I want to rush .

There’s no need to worry,

There’s no reason for any fuss.

Sometimes the words don’t come easy to me

but the feelings always do,
I don't know what's happening

but I think I'm in love with you.

I always enjoy the time I spend with you,

Because nothing makes me feel the way you do.
From now until the end of time,

I will always be in love with you.

- Megha.

Thinking Of You .....

This poem is dedicated to a special person :)

Thoughts of you creep into my head
late at night as I lay silently in my bed.

I imagine what it'll be like,
Meeting you for the first time
Will it be all new and scary?
Or like I’ve known you for a lifetime?

I walk across my room thinking of you.
How far across you seem to be.
I sit and I think, while I am thinking of you.
Are you even thinking of me?

My stomach aflutter,
with butterfly wings
Emotions and thoughts;
and so many other things.

Knowing I already like you
Praying you like me too
Hoping we get along fine,
I trust in your heart, but do you trust in mine?

Thoughts of you creep into my head
late at night as I lay silently in my bed.

-Megha

To Sonu ..With Love

They are your companions for life - only that when this companion leaves you suddenly that you realise that they were such an important part of your life. they come into our lives for such short time and before you know it they leave "the footprints of their little paws" in our lives.

This poem is for one such companion I had , I dedicate it to SONU.

Sunlight streams through the windowpane
unto a spot on the floor,

then I remember - it's where you used to lie,

but now you are no more.

I remember how you’d run to me

to play your favorite game,

And how your ears would perk right up

on hearing me call your name.

You’d wake me up each morning,
By licking on my face
You’d run around me in circles;
In your fast pace.

You’d jump on me as soon as I come
We’d roll together on the lawn
If anyone tried to separate us
You let out a loud moan

You always knew;
If I were having a bad day

so you'd snuggle up close to me;
And try to get me to play.

If that didn't work;
You’d put your head in my lap

then make yourself comfortable;
And take a sound nap.

You’d always lend a thoughtful ear,

a problem you’d never miss.
I miss the way, on my cheek
You’d lay a little doggy kiss.

Old habits still make me think

I hear a barking at the door.

Or step back when I drop

a tiny morsel on the floor.

My feet still go around the staircase

where the food dish used to be,
I still sit on the terrace all alone,
Thinking you are still listening to me.

It still pains me that I was not with you
On your last day
I wish I had one last chance to do something
That would have made you stay.

I wish somehow to tell you,

how empty I now feel.

A part of me went with you,

a part that time can't heal.

Although time may bring new friends

and a new food dish to fill,

that one place in my heart belongs to you

and always will.

-Megha.

The Eternal Dance

Well.. thanks to the continuous showers of rain I was finally able to pen a few lines ...

Falling gently down,
The rain drops dance.
They sail through the air,
Putting me in a hypnotic trance.

Flying through the screens,
They twist and twirl.
They dance the eternal dance –
Those lustrous pearls.

I close my eyes and listen,
To the raindrops fall with glee.
I dance to the beating rhythm,
A rhythm – that sets me free.

My feet find a way to me,
To an unknown melody I sway.
With raindrops glittering wet on my cheeks,
I dance as my weariness fades away.

I dance through my sadness
I dance through my fears
I dance through all my feelings
Of both happiness and tears.

They still continue to fall,
With such grace and poise.
Dancing in the clouds,
Unperturbed by the thunder’s noise.

Dancing makes me feel so good inside,
It brings a smile that I cannot hide.
I move in harmony to the rhythm of my heart,
It gives my life an all-new fresh start.

Er... Um.....

Well.. Its been some days I've actually penned something good .. N I had this fear if I had forgotten how to write ..... So the following four lines just came when I was feeling really dumb and dint know what to write .. hehehe .....Writing poetry can be fun ,

Except when I feel a lil dumb ,

I ponder and strive for something to say ...

Sorry - there's nothing new here today !!!

I know that was really dumb .. but here's promising to you tat I will soon return with something really good ...

Till then ...... :)

Reflections Of Yesterday

As the sun is slowly setting
And the evening shadow grows
I think back on the days gone by,
To a place I’d like to go.

Back to a place in my childhood
When days were so carefree,
Back to the days when my mummy’s lap
Was my favorite place to be .

Those days of pillow fights,
And playing in the front yard
Those days when growing up was fun
And nothing seemed too hard.

All too soon we turn around
And find ourselves all grown
With adult responsibilities
And worries of our own.

The memories of yesterday
Come quickly in my mind
When as an adult I am searching
For answers I cannot find.

We struggle through our losses
Gain strength from each hurdle crossed
And learn that we are not fully alone
Especially when we feel m ore lost

Now the shadows have faded to darkness
The day’s warmth is growing up
I look up to the stars in the sky
And wonder what tomorrow will hold

The stars are shinning don brightly
Almost as if to say –
Sleep well my dear and don’t be afraid
For tomorrows a brand new day.

Forever and Always

Have you ever loved someone, but for your love he never really knew,
You'd always say love you tons and he'd always just love you too.
Did you ever just wanna make him understand or make him acknowledge the words you say,
But it's like it never works out, you're the one hurting the most at the end of the day.

Have you ever had someone who was your morning, afternoon, and you're night,
He meant the world to you, he was your sunshine, he'd be your moonlight.
Have you ever had him so close to your heart it's like everything would always be just right,
Because he was your everything, he'd be your moon and the stars in the sky at night.

Have you ever thought about him 24/7, wondering what he'd be up to or even where he was,
You'd call him for no real reason at all, only calling just because.
Have you ever found yourself getting mad because you never had enough time for what you had to say,
You'd always have to wait for next time because there'd never be enough time that day.

Have you ever had someone to talk to, whenever it felt like your whole world was coming to an end,
He'd just sit there and listen, and then tell you it's all okay and that he'd always be your best friend.
He'd tell you he'd be there forever, no matter what the people say,
And no matter what everyone else thinks because he'd always love you anyway.

Have you ever wasted your day waiting, all because he said he'd call,
Have you ever wanted to tell him how you felt when it felt as if he never really cared at all.
Have you ever longed for his kiss or even thought about his smile,
And then just cried thinking about him only because you haven't seen him in a while.

Have you ever spent the whole day with him, but at the end it felt like the time just passed you by,
It's like your time was up but you didn't wanna let him go because you weren't ready to say goodbye.
Have you ever missed him soo much it's like you felt as if you were loosing your one and only best friend,
Because he was a big part of your life and it felt as if your whole life was coming to an end.

Have you ever fell asleep at night and dreamt about just being together,
One of those dreams you've always dreamt of having, the ones you'll always remember.
The ones walking along the beach with your bare feet in the sand,
Or laying on a blanket watching the stars while he's holding your hand.

Have you ever just cried about anything, you could never really explain what was wrong,
You'd just sit there in tears because it never really mattered if it felt as if you couldn't be strong.
Have you ever wondered if he really did love you because at times it seemed like that could never be true,
Because it was like he was perfect and you'd wonder why he'd really love someone like you.

Have you ever just scribbled on a paper, day dreaming, while drawing hearts around his name,
You'd be thinking about him all day, but spending one day without him just wouldn't be the same.
Have you ever just missed him like crazy, and at times it was like you never really knew what to do,
You'd try and do just about anything to spend time with him but he'd just never get the clue.

Have you ever gotten so frustrated with him,
And what made things worse was that he could never understand why.
He'd just sit there thinking everything was okay,
When really your emotions killed you inside.

Have you ever wondered about what he'd be thinking about and if you'd ever be crossing his mind,
Or have you ever felt that you were just an old chapter in his lost book, somewhere left for no one to find.
Have you ever just stopped worrying about things, because you knew that everything would always be okay,
Because even if things got hard, he'd still love you forever and always and it would always be that way.

Have you ever love him with all your heart, and for your love he always knew,
You'd tell him you loved him tons and he'd always be the one who whispered it back to you.
Have you ever had him understand, he'd always acknowledge the words you'd say,
Because he was your best friend "forever and always" he promised that day.

The Perfect Evening

Well.. this is one poem which i wrote where in I could pour my thoughts about a special evening I plan for my love...something which he would remember all his life .... something we'd remember all our lives ...

Heres to celebrating being together .. here s to celebrating love ..

An evening to remember, an evening to recollect
An evening that seemed just so perfect.
I wish that the time would remain still –
I wish I could see you more – to my hearts fill.

The balloons, the candles
And a table set for two,
Romance filled the air around us
And sweetheart, it was meant just for you.

Those eyes filled with love,
Gazing at me through the candle’s flame
Made me blush scarlet pink,
I’ve captured that moment in a picture frame.

Hand in hand, we sat for hours
Without speaking a word,
And yet this was the best talk I ever had,
Where unspoken words too were heard.

You kept looking into my eyes,
But it felt you were looking into my heart,
We made promises to each other
And without you – my world would fall apart.

Just when you thought
The evening was done
My special plans for you
Had just begun

Beneath the sky with stars shining bright
I knew this was the moment - it had to be tonight.
Expressing my feelings and my love for you
I knelt before you and proposed to you.

At the touch of your hand
My heart skipped a beat,
I remember melting in your arms
You swept me off my feet.

There was something magical about that night,
There s nowhere else I’d want to be.
We are meant to be with each other,
And even the Gods would have to agree.

Nothing lasts forever ..

This poem has a big history behind it which I would not like to speak of rite now ... But if you would have checked my post in the Megha's Diary blog you would have read it already ...

Nonetheless ... A brief intro to this poem is as follows :

The nature of things is that if they don't get lost, they get stolen, and if they don't get stolen, they get broken, and if they don't get broken, they fade or fall apart. This includes teacups, cars, sweaters, computers, earrings, and just about everything you can touch or experience or have--even relationships. Believe it or not, it helps to know that although "it" is in one piece now, its eventual, inevitable state is broken.

Things most cherished and nurtured, eventually and inevitably become nothing... Relationship don't always start as we might expect, nor end as we might wish ..

I’ve thought it over and I know what I want,
No matter what others say, or how much ever they taunt.
Lately, few things have been in my mind
No others means to express I find.

I never really knew you

you were just another friend

But when I got to know you,

I let my heart unbend.

There was this time I thought that you were just for me,
I saw no flaw in my choice, but I guess I clearly dint see.
I never knew this relationship would come to such an end,
And eventually I’d get back to calling you as a friend.

Not holding you in my arms is tearing me apart,

Being away is something I never imagined from the start.

I never thought we'd fall in love, so mad

I never realized life without you would be so bad.

This can't be over; we're still not through,

There's so much we haven't shared - so much we promised to do.
I still can’t stop myself from thinking that I’ll never be able to see you again,
But again, this is my choice and I am not going to complain.

They don't know what we are going through,

How much you love me and I love you.

If they only knew how you made me feel,

with all the problems you helped me deal.

How you taught me I was much more than I had ever thought -

All of the Joy, Happiness, and Love to me you brought.

Thoughts we shared, a life we lived, and a love we had together

and then it strikes back big time that Nothing Lasts Forever.

It's killing me that now that day has come,

If it's for the best then where is this pain from?

I know deep inside that this is what I had to do

but it's breaking my heart to walk away from you

I'm trying my best to appear strong,

but it's hard when part of me says that in your arms is where I belong.

I still love you with all my heart,

and that's not going to change even though we're apart

All the words I ever said or wrote still hold true

But for now from a distance is where I'll be loving you.

I think you need me as a friend to help you through,

because there are things I can't control that are hurting you

Maybe we will be together again if it was meant to be,

but for now please don't stop loving me

Even though I'm not your girlfriend I'll still be here,

With a shoulder to cry on or a sympathetic ear.

One day I will return to you all you have given me,

In some shape or form; soon you'll see.

One day we will be able to be together every day,

And we won't have to worry what they say.

So when the time comes, promise me you'll take my hand and be with me forever,
But again, I am sorry for now.. I have to say that Nothing Lasts Forever…

For you dear Pa ...

This was written on the occasion of Father's Day ...

I can never thank you enough Pa , for what you have done.
There are no words to express what I feel for you.


When I was a baby,
You would hold me in your arms.
I felt the love and tenderness,
Keeping me safe from harm.

I would lookup into your eyes,
And all the love I would see.
How did I get so lucky ?
You were the dad chosen for me.

And as I grew, you stood patiently behind me
Allowing me to stretch my wings
You had faith in what I did,
And never stopped me in doing any thing.

You made me test the waters,
And learn from my mistakes.
You let go off so many things,
Just for my sake.

No matter what has come about,
You were always there,
As a dad you showed me of
the how,the why and the where.

You may have thought that I dint see,
Or that I hadn't heard
Life's lessons that you taught me,
But I got every word.

Perhaps you thought that I missed it all,
And that we'd grow apart
But Dad,I picked up everything
It's written on my heart.

Without you,I wouldn't be
The woman I am today
You built a strong foundation
that no one can take away.

Our love is everlasting
I just wanted you to know
That you are my special hero
And wanted to tell you so.

I've grown up with all your values,
And I'm very glad I did,
So here to you,dear Pa
From your forever great full kid.

Mom N Dad - my pillars of strength

Wondering why I havent posted anything about my parents ...?? Well.. Here it goes...

Had penned it when I was in B'lore ..Missed you a lot ma n pa...

Dedicated to my pillars of strength.


Mother and Father of mine,
I am no longer your little girl.
The sweet princess,
Your perfect pearl.

I've grown up
Not you little lulu-belle
You don't have to run when I cry,
You don't have to stop when I yell.

Bigger I am,
Older I've gotten
Much I've changed
But my childhood is not forgotten.

As I let my memories subside,
My eyes fill with tears
I cry with peace abound
For all those happy years.

I know Dad, how hard it must have been
Always working to give me all I'd need
In my eyes you are the greatest of men
Always trying to do the good deed.

I love you Dad,you are my light
If it wasnt for you,I wouldnt ba able to sleep at night
You've helped me learn,helped me grow
There s so much today I wouldnt know.

My Mom , who is there
When I need a friend
Always ready and able
For my problems to tend

There have been times
When tears fell from my eyes
But when I looked up
Mom, you were always at my side.

You've taught me everything
Even your way of life
To know what to do when I am in trouble
Or when I have a little strife.

Always there to catch me fall
And to help make me stand
whatever it is I need help with
Knowing you'll always lend a hand.

I will never outgrow your love
ANd will always need you here for me
No matter how far i travel
Or how much we disagree

We have a bond like no other
One that helps me feel safe
Around you nothing else matters
And in you I have faith

A faith that makes me realize
You are deep within my heart
As long as that remains the same
we can never be apart

I'll always be your girl,
I know thats deep and true
And all that remains for me to say -
Ma n Pa - "I love you " !!!!!!!!!

Lying to Forget

Now that I am on the topic of past - there was another question that came to my mind .What happens when in the future, your past comes and stands in front of you ? You would just see yourself crumble ...

You need to let the feelings engulf you completely. Dont fight them… Dont push them away… Accept them… As part of your self.

The following poem is dedicated to a dear friend whom I could not see causing pain to herself.

You must have moved on sweety ... but i'd never be able to forget the pain you went through.


This lie has become a part of me,
For months I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear his name .

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on,
As if the feelings I once had
For him are somehow gone.

Spending each and everyday
With happiness and laughs,
Forgetting all our memories,
Avoiding all photographs.

But suddenly when I saw him
For the first time since he left
My heart skipped for a moment
I couldn't catch my breath.

When suddenly it hit me,
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time
I just cant let him go ...

Past

Past - we all have a past , but what matters most is how many of us still live in the shadows of our past?

This poem was written for a very spl friend of mine to whom I just wanted to say let go of his past and live for his present and future .

The past holds many secrets
better left untold ,
For to bring them to the present
its bitterness unfolds.

The memories we cherish
may be tarnished by its gloom,
Its darkness and its sorrow
is to what we are doomed.

There is no need to relive the past
for to do so is in vain,
Yesterday's gone,today is here
why relive the pain ?

Forget the past as you turn away
and wish it the farewell
For no longer in your past
will your present dwell ......

Promises

It took me lot of time to pen this poem , coz I thought of all that I wanted from my life partner and what I would want to promise him till eternity .....

So this all about promising yourself to the one you care for and love.

One of my fav's.

Take my hand when my eyes weep,
Hold me gently in your arms,
Finger my curls as I sleep,
Dazzle me with all your charm.

Provide me time and space,
Listen closely when I speak,
Secure in your life my place,
Support me the times I'm weak.

Cherish our times together,
Dread anytime we are apart.
Mean when you say forever,
Let my absence gnaw your heart.

And let all my joys be yours,
Let my sorrows be as well.
And share relationship chores
Mind your ego,lest it swell.

And I beg you never fight,
Let us walk our time in peace
With a kiss for every night
Let our passions never cease.

But above all these , my love
Swear always that you'll be true
For not you I ask these of -
They're my promises to you .